adrenaline flowing through my veins

Tuesday, May 31, 2005
i am so stressed.

the thought of working tmr is stressing me out.
don't get me wrong, i love working.
but knowing that i have to make the drinks at the bar
is stressing me out.
i haven't memorise the recipes for the drinks at the bar damnit.
how how.
you know, this is much more worst than making frap drinks.
frap drinks are so easy. bar drinks are a little complicated.
i even had dreams about starbucks, making bar drinks.
how weird is that?
so the kemarok.

the kids are going kl.
i want to go too
but dad and mum haven't give me a definite answer yet.
well, dad has said no.
but i'm trying my luck for the 3rd time.
mum is helping me to saiko dad.
pls dad, i really wanna go.
so badly, i can cry.
if i can go, i'm willing to trade my freedom for the rest of the year.
pretty pls?

i was at the end of doing this bulletin at friendster,
when suddenly, my com went, "........."
i was about to press the submit button siakkk.
you wouldn't wanna know how pissed off i was.

and i got a Powerpuff Girls notebook.
i have alot to write down.

ok. it's getting lame
and i'm getting hungry.

tmr will be working at 10am - 5.30pm.
right. hope i'll get through it.

burst veins @ 9:35 PM

so i told you with a smile.

i think the mcfly song, "it's all about you"
is a little cliched
but yet it is so sweet.
short and sweet.
heh. i'm a sucker for anything sweet.

it's amazing how fast june arrived.
about 25 more days to my birthday.
20 years old.
no no.. ain't hinting for anything ok.
i just can't believe i've lived this long.
alhamdullilah.

seriously. my blog is getting deader and deader.
i just have a writer's block at the moment.
i mean, it's not that my blog is any fun to read
but i just don't have any idea what to blog nowadays.
any help?

ok. this com seriously sucks big time.

and since Pool won the European Cup,
my bro is becoming more and more obsessed with that team.
but it's good though.
he just told that Pool is buying John O'Shea of Man Utd.
WTF? got a huge feeling Man Utd is going down under this Glazer fucker.
haiz.

and pls pray for me that i can go.
i badly wanna go.
how bad? i'm willing to trade the rest of the year's freedom for this.
serious.

and i think my layout is so damn nonsense but cute.
just like moi. :D

bye lah.

burst veins @ 12:12 AM

Monday, May 30, 2005
sometimes

i wished i was a boy instead.
seriously. sometimes i wished i have a dick.

and i realised that the more ppl give in to me,
the more i respect and adore them.
when they don't,
the more i rebel.

will be working on wed, thurs, sat, sun.
i'm getting so complacent not working from last friday till tuesday.
heh.
i miss it some how though.

ok bored.
and madagascar is one hell of a short cartoon.
i love chris rock.

burst veins @ 12:46 AM

Friday, May 27, 2005
closing.

tiring sia.
i reached home at 3.
suntec closing time long giler babi.
ok. tired already.
wah sibei rhyme sia.

pool won.
i watched the bloody match from the kick-off till
the time Stevie G lifted up the European Cup.
i was laughing my heads off when AC Milan scored their 3rd goal.
but in my heart, i so badly wanted pool to come back
which seem impossible.

2nd half, i think AC Milan had drunk their celebratory champagne in the dressing room.
by then, pool had scored their 1st goal, 2nd and 3rd.
*WHAM*
my eyes were wide awake.
i was jumping like mad.
my sis was looking at me and she said,
"wtf since when u had become a pool fan?"
heh.
bro barged into the room and started jumping,
"heart attack, heart attack!"
mad.
i was caught by his enthusiasm.
and it was 4+ in the morning, not evening ok.

sis said, "confirm the match was fixed."
i refused to believe that fact.
the day it is been confirmed, i'll truly lose my faith in soccer.
but yes, congrats pool.
i felt proud, surprisingly.
and EPL team.
an inconsistent one at that, won the Champions League.
Kudos.

*yawn*

burst veins @ 3:42 AM

Wednesday, May 25, 2005
this is what i like.

as they say, with great company, you'll feel and have fun.
how true.
work yesterday, 25/5/05, was FUN with a capital F.
make that FUN with all the letters in capitals.
FUN. F-U-N.
i've never thought i would not want the day to end.
it was just awhile ago i had punched in my card to start the day
and suddenly, my manager, naz asked me to punch out.

i mean, there were khaiRUN [i have to resort typing out his full name now that his bro is working there as well.],
my manager and long time friend, naz,
the sweet girlfriends whom i adore so much, nurul and afiqah.
the 4 of them were making me laughed and have fun
but at the same time, learning and training was bearable
and enjoyable under them.
no pressure to perform, but the eagerness to learn must be there.

and my goodness, don't get me started on them 4 gossipping.
it was great fun.
i have additional bitching partners to bitch with.
cool shits.

and see what khai n naz did while i was busy making bar drinks?
they were busy taking pictures of themselves
and setting their pics as my wallpaper.
HAHA. kentot.
pics at the end of the entry.

khai is a good learning coach.
he totally patient, understanding.
i'm not saying this just because he's my friend.
[he's reading this btw, so must praise mah! kidding ah!]
but seriously, the way he teaches me is very straightforward and clear cut.
to anyone who taught khai on how to teach me,
please, get a life.
he's doing a great job.

so i'll be doing closing today from 6pm to 1.30am.
khai won't be there
but the other 3 crazy heads will be.
so i hope it will be as fun as yesterday.
come on down if you guys wanna see me work ok.
hahaha..

for once, i'm hoping pool to win.
coz i'm an english premier league fan.
not Serie A. or Spanish League. or whatever league fan.
and also, for the fact that farid flew almost everyone he knew off to Istanbul.
i don't want him to waste his money on ALL the air tickets he spent on.
hahahaa..

bought myself a Yoda figurine.
well actually, not his figurine,
just his face keychain.
1.90 at metro.
hahahaha.. i'm so mad about the green guy.

how many people can stand up and say they know of a guy friend,
be it a boyfriend or just a best friend,
that is willing to travel anywhere that you want to go to,
ANYWHERE AT ALL, even a long walk to nowhere, even if you have been talking nonsense,
even though he's tired, lazy, can't be bothered, pennyless,
slack, sleepy, bored, moody, short tempered [insert more negative adjectives here.]?

i know i'll stand up.

oh yes. hanif,
happy 20th birthday.

My mad manager-cum-near-my-block-neighbour, naz, and my mad friend-cum-partner-at-work, khaiRUN.

typical khai's antics.

burst veins @ 11:59 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005
grrr...

4am, Monday Morning.

"i'm going to Istanbul.. so there is no need for you guys to call or msg me, or else your bill will be so high. take care.." -farid

"wow.. for what you go there? NS? Holiday?" -me

"Champions League Final.. Gotta go now. Take care." -farid

"WWWWWOOOOOOWWWW.. kiss Stevie G for me." -me

some people just have all the luck in the world.
FYI, farid is filthy rich. VERY VERY filthy rich.
at 20, he has his own 2 storey semi detached house,
a Z4 BMW Convertible, master cards, visa and what nots.
and he's a mad liverpool fan.
so u can't blame him for getting a little enthusiatic,
especially when liverpool is in the final.
FINAL, mind you.

i'm very content with my life.
like my friends said, just give ayu clorets and she's happy. heh.
alhamdullilah.
but if only i get to go Istanbul now and watch the Champions League Final.
grrrr...

burst veins @ 1:28 AM

Monday, May 23, 2005
down and out.

went to the doc just now.
my temperature was 38.90 degrees celsius.
i have mc for tmr.
and doc gave me bloody big tablets.
no trouble swallowing them
but the after-taste lingered around longer than it should.
doc said i have swollen tonsils.
what the heck is that.
but i know that it is painful when doc pressed it.

i'm such a weakling.
i'm ashamed of myself.
but my sister in law said, i am probably not used to working life.
hence the fever.
everything is cold to the touch.
i'm perspiring but i'm feeling cold.
and my head feels heavy.
feel like dying.
don't know how dying feels like but i can just imagine
that it is like this.
tuhan saje yg tahu ape aku rase.

so i've been sick twice in a month.
mom said savings from the metal box is not just for me,
it's for the whole family
but it seems i'm the one who used it alot.
hahaha.. she was being sarcastic but she was smiling when she said that.
i know she was just kidding.
love u mom.

so now, i've just measured my temperature again.
it's getting higher, not lower.
39.69 degrees celsius.
the more i lie in bed, the worst i feel.
i should walk about, fight the bloody fever.

i'm alone right now at home.
so scared i might faint alone.
mom, lil butterfly and sis in law, bro just went out.
can't wait for sis and dad to come back.
mom asked if i can be alone.
of coz i can.

ok ah.
staring at the screen gives me a headache.

burst veins @ 7:55 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005
life.

i'm having a high fever.
39.57 degrees celsius to be exact.
is that high?
i think so.
i feel like collapsing.
this is the effect of someone who has just started working
for the 1st time ever in her entire life.
the effect of going into an airconditioned environment,
to out in the open,
to standing a long time,
to skipping her meals.
it has taken a toll on my body.
but the funny thing is, i don't feel like quitting.
not coz i don't want to.
but i want to taste my 1st ever pay by sweating it out.
i'm a weak person with weak immune system.
serious.
but i don't want people to say i'm weak.
no way.
argh.

poor mom. she's so worried sick about me.
she wants me to stop working this line
and find a proper job.
but i can't see myself working in an office environment,
a 9-5 job.
that's so not me.
haiz.
tell me what am i supposed to do.

Starhub is having this promotion for non-subscribers
to watch all Starhub channel for free.
for one whole month, you'll get to watch AXN, HBO etc.
but only one channel a day.
so if u miss a channel,
TOO BAD. hehe.
tune your tv till you see it.
and since my family isn't subscribing to HBO,
and currently, HBO is free at Channel 01,
my dad has been watching it from just now.
he intends to subscribe to it.
lah.

yoda is such a beautiful creature.
he really is.
i need to buy episode 4, 5 and 6.
i want to get turned on watching yoda.
hahahahaha...

so i'll be working on tuesday, wednesday, thursday and sunday.
all 8 hours each.
the manager wants to speed up my training.
but he doesn't know that it's tiring.
haiz.
my sis said suffer now, later2, can relax.
yeah right.
tell that to my body.

oh! being a trainee means, not knowing what to do
but you are being trained to do what you are supposed to do.
so don't act as though i supposed to know everything
and anything like you do.
i've only work for like 3 times!
not like months or years like any of you ok.
fuck. don't use that tone on me.
but nvm, i'll just do my job and pretend you don't even exist.
you are pretty but seriously stucked up.

i want to be independant.
i don't want to be the spoilt brat who depends on her parents for EVERYTHING.
yes, i lead a good life.
my family has my back.
but i need to stand up on my own.
why am i talking so ye-ye tonight?
heh.

ok ah.
i want to sleep.
tmr, i'll need to go for my typhoid jab.
will it be painful?
hope not.

and i've 116 pictures to upload.
mati ar.

edited//
k. photos up.

burst veins @ 11:40 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005
my 1st time...

1st day:
learnt a whole new term to the word "bus." or "bussing."
it means, cleaning up the utensils, wiping the tables clean,
basically, cleaning up when the customers have left the tables.
khairin helped me to make COD.
that's Coffee of the Day people.
tiring. backbreaking. but fun.
although i couldn't wait to go home.
the big big people of starbucks were there at suntec.
one of them came up to me and welcomed for joining starbucks.
and she commented that i have such a nice smile.
oh. thank u honey.

2nd day:
both siblings suck my blood.
i'm just kidding.
khai taught me how to make frap.
cool shit.
i need help with drink calling.
that is when the cashier calls out the drink to the baristas makin fraps,
the baristas have to call back what the cashier has just said.
understand?
erm.. yeah.

so. i think i can manage.
my sister told me not to drop her water face.
how could she?
nvm, i'm a blur cock.
i know my ownself.
but i think i can manage.

shaikhah, thanks for dropping by.
and tell ur fren, i'll tell u when is khai's schedule k.
muhahahahaha..

so to my girlies:
my schedule for sunday is 7am to 1.30pm.
yes, i'm doing opening.
so i have to wake up at 5 am.
that's right, FIVE am.
in the morning.
please help.

darth varder, here i come.
yoda, you many many i heart.

new pics will be up soon.
how soon.
dono ah.

*yawn*

burst veins @ 2:08 AM

Thursday, May 19, 2005
so long. and goodbye.

2 years of ITE life in ITE MacPherson has come to an end.
took my final examination and it was hell. i didn't study ah.
anyway, we took pictures, we took everything,
the lift, the lockers, the corridors, toilets, almost everything.
it was heartbreaking to know that we won't be stepping foot into that building
again as students.

all the crushes, the loudness, the smoking session, the eating, drinking parts, the fights, i'll sorely missed.
alif said it best.
read his blog to know how we all feel.

and yes. i respect u hanif for shaking our hands.
seriously.

to my wonderful class of MMT2X, seriously i couldn't ask for a better class.
the great times we all spent laughing at one another couldn't be replaced.

to alif, khus:
u both know how much u both mean to me. thank u for always being there. and pampering me.

kin:
thank u for always telling me to be independant but at the same time pamper me as though i'm the younger one. hehe.

fir, faliq:
the brothers. always there to listen to me crapping. thanks!

tweet:
hey kinky boy. no more cold hands to turn u on eh? go and flatten that tummy in tekong.

khai:
oh! the boy who gave me my 1st work! hahahaa.. corniness is your virtue. keep it up.
see u at work dude.

to my other schoolmates, and also schoolmates-cum-blogmates, i'll see u guys around.
all the best. take care!

*sob*

burst veins @ 12:50 AM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005
goodbye training stint.hello working life.

i made 4 drinks today during training.
a cappucino, a latte, a mocha and an americiano.
did i spell the last drink right?
oh fuck it.
anyway, the learning coach was happy with all the drinks i've made
and she even drank my latte and commented that it was good.
how happy.
my sis said it runs in the family.
like, hello, only u and i are working in starbucks.
crazy.
steaming milk and making espresso have never been so much fun.

so trainings had been fun.
gonna miss going to tanjong pagar.
haha. siao.
i'll be working at the store soon.
can't wait for that.
and the joy of earning my first ever pay.
i'm so gonna splurge it.
yeap yeap. not just on myself.
i know how to divide my money.
and khai, don't worry, i won't get u into trouble u toad.

having my exams tmr.
last day of skool.
oh man.
i've been repeating this story for how many days already.
but really, i'll miss school so much.
i'm starting to tear now.
*sniff*

the hobbits in my class are planning a seoul garden dinner tmr after our paper.
i really wanna go but i've no kaching.
how great.
probably won't go just coz i don't have any smackeroos.
anyone wanna sponsor 1st?
haha.kidding ah k.

i miss my girlies of kallangcs!
where u all???
faizah??wani??

nobody spew vulgarities at my family and get away with it.
NO ONE.
not even if i love that person to death.
for the fact that u're an elder, i still respect u.
and for the fact that this is my blog
and i've the convenience to type anything i want,
a big FUCK YOU to u.

and a big GOOD LUCK and GOOD NIGHT to me.
for my paper today and i need my sleep.

burst veins @ 12:25 AM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005
sumatra, kenya, guatemala. WHATEVER!

i'm too caffeinated already.
drank 5 cups of different types of unsweetened, pure blackness coffee, no sugar added.
we were asked to differentiate the taste, the body, the aroma of the coffees.
and you know what?
i couldn't differentiate them at all.
they all taste the same!!!!!
how the fuck should i taste for acidity in all the coffees?
by the time i drank the 2nd coffee, my tongue went numb.
and i think by the time i finish my training stint,
i'll have a nightmare on coffee beans.
help me someone?

so today will be my last training stint at GB Building.
made friends whom are all fun people.
i think i'll miss the fun of training there.
but i'll be serving people, so i guess it'll be more fun!
anxious, scared but i can't wait for work to start!
i just can't help but say this, I'M WORKING, PEOPLE!

and i wonder why the people who train us,
love to look at me and ask me to smile.
or they'll call out my name and they smile
and so in turn i'll smile.
like, why?
and they are all girls!

exam is around the corner.
on the 18th to be exact.
it will be my last day of school too.
good things has come to an end in my life.
but i'm know greater things are to come!
:)

pictures of the chalet will be up soon.
oh wait. i'm not sure if i want to put it up also.
i'm so fucking lazy to upload them.

i need a back massage.
everyone? anyone? someone??

//edited.
Check this out:
Go www.gv.com.sg and click on 'buy tickets', go to the 'change date', click on the 20th.

you see what u get?
All Star Wars.
hahahaha.. cool shit.

burst veins @ 2:27 AM

Monday, May 16, 2005
sing me a lullaby pls

i've watched:
-The Amityville Horror
[oh..my..god. scary fuck. good show. all of my cousins were freaked out.]
-House of Wax
[paris hilton died in a gore but sexy way. starting was a bore.]

So i'm left with:
-Star Wars
[darth varder is cool. light sabres are cooler. but yoda the coolest is .]
-Initial D
[jay chou rocks]
-Sin City
[josh, elijah. haiz. what more can i say?]

And i suddenly feel like watching:
-Kingdom of Heaven
[ok, for orlando]
-Premonition
[it just look like a great scary movie]

All i need now:
-MONEY
-$$$$$
-Smackeroos

--------
2nd day of training on the 13th was good.
i talked to everyone already.
basically, i couldn't care less if they think i'm crazy
but i was dying of boredom not talking to anyone.
peed in the boys' toilet coz the girls' toilet was locked
and i couldn't be bothered to ask for the key.
the person who taught us said i was cute.
and the rest couldn't believe i was 20.

13th-15th was my cousins' chalet.
it was fun.
madness. my cousins are great fun people.
i love them.
we bowled, watched a 2.30am show.
smuggled my 15 yr old cousin in.
NC16 mah the show.

today is another training day at 6pm.
sian-ness.
pray for me that i'll survive going home alone.

pretty much, that's about it.
i'm just too tired.
i need my sleep.

anyone wanna sing me a lullaby?

burst veins @ 2:19 AM

Friday, May 13, 2005
how do the people who made the new tastier dog food know its tastier?

i had fun during my FOUR hours training.
there are 12 people in the class and there are only 2 girls, me included.
4 chinese guys, the rest all malay, including me and the girl.
i can't click with the girl coz she's.....
well, let's say she thinks she knows it all.
which i have to admit that she does.
but, it doesn't harm to shut up and pretend not to know what!
i think she is a former barista.
oh well.
and kin, no cute guys. so cannot intro ah.
if got also, not ur kind of guy.
wait ah eh, i start work, got customers cute2, i intro them to u ok.

my menses cramps made it hard for me though.

i really can't believe i'm working.
AYU IS WORKING!!!

ok. today is another training day for me.
again, 6-10pm.
great.
i'm having fun, seriously.
but the drinking coffee part suck alot.
coz u guys shd know i don't drink coffee
and the coffe they let us tasted were all unsweetened and no sugar whatever.
pure black coffee that are fucking bitter.
so now i can't sleep.

will be having my in store training on the 19th.
i so can't wait.
pls let khai be the one to train me.
coz at least i won't be so stressed.
but hope khai won't go hard on me!
jgn eksen ar!
and yes, wani called me last night
and she said she'll come to the store everytime i'm working.:D

good question here by alif:
how do the people who made the new tastier dog food know its tastier?
dogs can't answer.
so do the people taste it themselves?
eeeewwwww..

ok. my back is hurting.

burst veins @ 12:32 AM

Thursday, May 12, 2005
i'm excited, sad, scared, anxious. oh wat the hell.

Excited:
i'll be starting my training today.
at 6 in the evening.
at tanjong pagar at capital tower.
will be meeting new girls [note: girls. i can't get along with girls well.],
learning new things. will be working.
and i'll be an independant toad soon too.
u guys shd know how DEPENDANT i am to other ppl especially my loved ones and friends.
The Kids should know. HEH.

Scared:
same as the above. i've a thing of meeting new people.
i'm friendly. too friendly at times.
i can click with almost everyone.
but meeting new people, i tend to look fierce.
i don't know why, i'll just start to frown
but by the end of the day, i'll start smiling.

Sad:
Basically, just now, was my unofficial last day of school.
Last day is on the 18th, my examination day.
so we don't need to come to school till then.
there was a tinge of sadness in the AVA room.
i can feel it. and when i shook hands with my other classmates,
we were like, "jumpe kat luar tegor eh!"
[say hi when we meet outside eh!]
and the guys went, "jumpe kat dlm tekong!"
[meet in tekong!]
sweetness.
i'll blog about my ITE life after the 18th. :(
i'll miss ITE life.

Anxious:
Reality hit me hard just now.
What am i going to do after school now?
go Higher Nitec?
can i make it through Higher Nitec with my GPA which i doubt will be enough?
should i start working?
oh god. this is the time i wish i am back in school.

---------------------------
Project presentation just now was rocking.
like kin had said, i think my group and hers are the only uncomplete and mepekest one.
good effort by alif n tweet for doing all the jobs for khus n me and kin n khai respectively.
we 4 are eternally grateful for you 2.
i love how simple yet stunning the video made by my clsmates, reza, hus, sylvester and jian bao.
very emo, very touching, very sweet, very sad and so A Walk To Remember.
and the rest of the groups had put in alot of effort.
good job!
and oh, note to self, prepare something when have to present a project.
heh.

so wish me luck guys!
i need it!

burst veins @ 12:06 AM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005
i need a book.

the last time i read was...
3 weeks ago?
and it's quite long for my standards.
i love to sit in the library alone
and go to one corner and get myself engrossed in a book.
or i could just lie in bed all day, without caring to eat, or bathe
and finish the whole damn book.
i'm mad and weird like that about books.
ok enough.

school is ending soon in a week or so time.
i'll miss it so much.
it has been a great big chunk of my life.
this is where i've met great friends,
this is where i've experienced life stuffs and matters,
this is where i've many crushes and
this is where i've fall in love and fell out of love.
and guess what, for almost 2 years, i've never fell or slip in school.
yesterday, the embarrassment, i slipped and fell on my right knee.
and it was grazed so badly that now i have blue black grazed knee that hurts a little when i walk. coolness. thank god no one saw it.
only fir n alif.
and blardy hell did they laugh at me.
hrmph!

pity alif though that he had to do most of our projects alone.
editing the 2 videos took alot of time and effort and blardy hell patience.
and he's not really a patient guy.
kudos to him.
i'm so ashamed of myself. i nv even help him a single bit.
sorrrrrry.. wait i blanje u ice cream k.
and i'll probably put up our video projects here one day!

rob thomas is now a solo artist.
i loved matchbox twenty.
they were a great band.
they had great hits and they were easy to the ears.
sometimes i think my heart goes to alternative music more than anything else.
but i know i'll listen to anything except techno, trance shits.
anyway, about rob thomas.
he is so hot now i can scald myself just by watching him.
and look at the bon bon shaking in the video, "Lonely No More."
*swoon*
that song is catchy.

isn't my layout simple?
it is.
i love simplicity.
i'm a girl who like simple things in life.
but i tend to make simple things complicated.
does it mean i love simple things or complicated things?
or does it mean i love complicating simple things?
i dono. i'm complicated person to figure out at times.
i'm digressing right now. i know.
don't mind me.
i think i'm weird.
well, weird is not that strong a word.
i'm just unique in my own way.
totally out of point.

the cousins's chalet is on this friday.
i'm not sure if i'll have training on that day
coz my training starts this thursday.
like finally.
but if i do have training on friday,
i probably will come to the chalet later.
duh.
i wouldn't miss the chalet for the world.

i think my computer loves me alone.
it wouldn't switch on for anyone else, except me.

i've never said how much i love sengkang.
well, now i do. heh.

and i've never tried using a tampon before.
it's so weird to insert something into me.
and reading shidah's blog made me all quesy using a tampon.
erk.

and i want to go jalan kayu and eat the pratas.
i'm having crazy craving for the pratas there i can go nuts.
luckily jalan kayu is near.

the bottomline is,
i want to read a book.
somebody be so kind as to pay my overdue fines for me?

burst veins @ 5:28 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005
i'm good. and Happy Mothers' Day.

friday was a mad day.
my mum suffered the same stomach problems as me
and she looked as if she was dying.
sis and me were crying our eyes out and bro looked so panicked
i swore i could laugh but i didn't of coz.
dad came back from work, 2 hours after he had left the house for work.
and then the sweetest thing was,
the WHOLE family accompanied me n mum to the doc.
mum and me went into the doc at the same time.
the doctor said we had air in our stomachs.
and the family ended up eating at macs.
sweetness.

after dat, met up wif alif, khus, khai n nas.
walked. walked. walked.
tiring.
classic reaction from alif n nas
when they saw a girl sitting a little non-too-discreetly.
they actually looked away!
not like some guys!
cool shit.

so i'm ok.
my stomach still feels alittle funny.
but i guess it will have to get used to food now.

mom's ok too.
i'm glad.
i love her so much, i wouldn't want to see her in that state ever again.
she is so precious to everyone in the family.
and to her, Happy Mothers' Day Mom!
muacks!

ok. i better go.
thanks for all the wishes darlings.
:D

burst veins @ 11:51 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2005
what the hell.

since my computer decided to be good tonight,
and i'm still feeling abit under the weather,
thus causing me to have a writer's block,
not that i'm a good writer in the 1st place,
i've decided to take some questions from 8 days and put it up here.
answers are all by me, of coz.

What would you do if a hottie you're eyeing across the room has body odour?
omg. i'll cry for the shame. hahaha.. just kidding. i'll probably try not to look at him and forget that he's there.

Would you rather a guy have bad taste or bad breath?
i can work out his bad tasteness but bad breath? i want to kiss him, not puke on him!

Should a guy pick up the tab on the 1st date?
it's much more gentlemanly and thoughful of him to do so on the 1st date. subsequent dates, i'll offer to pay. but i won't make it a habit!

Hot, sexy action or cosy cuddles?
i so prefer the cuddles. give me cuddles anytime and i'll be eternally grateful to you. heh.

Which do you prefer on your man: boxers, briefs or G-strings?
i think guys look weird with g-strings on. and unless u're freddie ljungberg in calvin kleins advertiments, don't tink about wearing the briefs. preferably, with nuthing on top, but just a boardshorts. wow. dat's hot.

ok da.
i'm bored ah. dat's y.
and i'm still sick.

burst veins @ 11:35 PM

direct from lj. and something else.

i am sick since yesterday.
a fever dat made me cold to the touch although it was HOT yesterday.
wore a sweater and i still felt cold.
swallowed 3 panadols.
i tink it was a mistake.
i've never ate 3 panadols in one go.

so i ended up puking every single thing dat was put into my mouth.
for the whole lot of yesterday, i didn't eat a single thing.
went home, dad fed me 2 mouthful of rice.
bad mistake again, i puked the whole thing out.
woke up at 1am to puke.
and again at 2am, 3am, 5am, 7am, 8am and again at 9am to puke.
so u can say, i didn't have a good night sleep.

the worst ever was at 5am, where i had just finished puking
and i decided to lie down in bed
but i could feel the vomit building up again.
rushed to the toilet and puked again.
and my vomit was so blackish and so thick that i actually cried.
i looked such a sad sight, kneeling on all fours in the toilet.

it sucked big time to be puking alot when dere wasn't anything in your stomach.
and when i said dere wasn't anything in my stomach,
i really mean it.
i didn't eat a single thing at all yesterday.
alif fed me a nugget and some fries
and khus gave me some fries,
that too went out from my system.

right now, my brain is swimming in my head.
i feel so drained out from puking alot.
just finished eating porridge.
i can feel it wanting to come out but i'm forcing it down.
i can't walk. if i could, i would have gone to the doctor.

watched Wet Dreams with the usual suspects except for faliq on Tuesday.
dat show is so funny, hilarious and outright dirty.
i laughed so hard coz well.. it is damn hilarious.
now i see cup noodles in a different light.

and do u noe how glad am i dat pool won?
very. fuck mourinho and chelsea.
too bad joe cole, frank lampard, john terry and damien duff
are chelsea players.
they are cute.
heh.

alright. i need to rest.

burst veins @ 3:40 PM

Monday, May 02, 2005
my com's a bitch.

i shdn't really say dat as my title.
sometimes i tink my com understand wat i always say.
when i sayang2 it, it will switch on.
when i maki2 it, it will be so stubborn and will not switch on.
so computer, i sayang u ok.

went to farid's house yesterday
and my girlies were dere!
thanks to wani, faizah, lydia, mai, ida
for taking care of me. muacks!
and thanks to wak for the talk.
didn't noe i could talk to u. :D

just got back from simpang bedok.
do wat? wat else, makan ah.
wif alif, khus, zuck, syadie, din, dzafir, tweet and MONirah
now i'm hungry back again.
serve me right for not finishing a piece of egg prata.
and oh! i went to pee right after Randall Tan peed.
hahahaha.. he is so cute, my goodness.

tot i get to stay home tmr.
but there's an MMD test tmr.
damn it.
so skool, here i come.

flirting is a crime.
dat's y i don't do it.
:D

ok. bye.

burst veins @ 11:55 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005
my weekends! A B-L-A-S-T!

friday:
arcade rawked my friday.
after then, proceeded to watch XXX with alif, khai n khus.
cute right? 4 ppl. quite pathetic, quite sad but very cute.
we watched the 9.30pm show at bugis.
and dad wasn't pissed with me when i got home at 12.45am.
and XXX was great. i love it.

saturday:
went to Singapore Poly to watch the ITE Stardom 2005.
of coz ah 2005. takkan 2001 rite?
haiz. corny.
i had so much fun screaming for I Remember May,
the band with tweet, zuck, zad n khai in it.
and the supporters, namely, Alif, Khus, Syikin, Fir, Faliq, MONirah, Inn, Fad(with his ever blowing whistle), Suhayl, Rab, Sam, Zanna, Syadie, Kodil, Ikay and me
were having so much fun.
[i took all the names from alif's blog. i can't remember all.]

of coz, we went crazy when I Remember May won the best band.
it was crazy. i was jumping around the front of the stage, screaming,
touching zuck's hand, waving madly at the rest of them.
and ppl were pushing and shoving me.
securities had to pushed us all away and i was being knocked on the head.
hahahaha.. but i had fun so i let that rest.
now my throat is sore.

and faliq had the chance to usher eunice olsen to the stage.
and she gave him a big round of applause
and the guy ended up smelling his hand.
gosh.
and kumar is the sexiest dere.

got back home around 12.50am.
thanx to nas for fetching me.
i dono how i could ever thank him.
desperate times call for desperate measures.
dat's y i had to call him.
sorry faizah, i had to use ur boyfren.

pictures will be up.
i won't announce when.
just keep looking at the usual column to see if they are there or not.
:)

this is truly a weekend to remember.
thanks to all for making me happy. heh.

bye.

// edit.
k ah.
pics are up. heh.
some are abit dark, abit blur.
but wtf. enjoy.

burst veins @ 1:59 AM