adrenaline flowing through my veins

Thursday, April 28, 2005
i want my mr brightside

so i came to skool just now just to take my test papers.
i've been wasting my mornings waking up early
just to go to skool for a few minutes.
but meeting up with my pals are what i enjoyed the most.

how could my Constantine be out??
how could he!!
i'll miss his pout, his lips, his sexy eyes, his long legs, his curly hair.
oh my god.
blind u americans, blind!

and i tink fann wong looks so pretty wearing eyeliner.
she is a pale person by nature
and so when she wears it, it immediately stands out.
pretty lah.
and dat character tracy, is hot.
she has a hot bod.
wow.

i want a new fone.
coz my N7610 is a bore now.
it's totally passe to own a 7610 nowadays.
everyware u go, someone is holding a N7610.
damnation.

my friend, dzafir needs a woman.
anyone who likes to be friends with him
or wants to be his girlfriend,
please click on my link and tag him
or can apply through my tag board.
thank u! :D

i can't wait for the cousins' chalet!
i can't wait!!!!!
the girls are going skinny dipping!!
hahahahaha.. woah..
so if anyone of u see some naked ladies,
pls don't peep.

and the girlies of kallangcs are going to go newton to eat!!
we gonna gorge and pig ourselves silly.
and den, more gossipping to come!
when? i have no idea...
and erm.. wani will be dere too... ahem.. ahem!!

i seriously dono wat to blog about anymore.
so many things to say but i have to be discreet.
i hate to hide.
fuck.

and i want my mr brightside.
where art thou?
heh. i'm going shakespearian.
and i'm not even sure i've said it correctly.
wateva.

burst veins @ 11:44 PM

Wednesday, April 27, 2005
somebody has stolen my heart and you are my prime suspect

one of my friends in msn has my title for a nick.
hence, dat's y i took it for my title.
style ah. but corny.

went to skool in vain.
reached skool and it was break time.
and since tweet wanted to go home,
khus, alif n me came to my place.
so basically, i went skool, just to go canteen.
cool shit kan.

i had fun today although skool was a bore.
i just love talking.
talk and talk and talk.
i can go on and on but i don't want to piss some ppl off.
that's why i tend to keep quiet nowadays.
hahahaha..

and i love asking questions.
especially trivial question and irrelevant questions.
u can see if someone is a patient person or not
by the way he/she answers u.

when the heck is my debarment list coming out?
i'm getting lazy to go skool.

mum said not to talk about the weather.
just accept wateva God has given us.
but can i say sumthing still?
it has been freaking hot and humid nowadays.
i can squeeze myself and my clothes
and it will be full of perspiration.
yucks.
and today, i've bathed 4 times.
nice.

tonight liverpool vs chelsea.
i'll most probably watch it.
i so want liverpool to win it.
i'll be damn proud if liverpool does win dis match,
even though i hate them
and i sure noe dat history and previous matches statistics
shows dat luck and logic explaination is not on their side.

ok.bye.

burst veins @ 10:34 PM

life.

unpredictable at times, life.
but i'm loving it.
what's the point of looking back to ur past and regretting it?
i'm not the kind to look back and regret.
sure, i do remember my past
but it's not sumthing i'll harp on over and over again.
coz the people around me would always be dere for me no matter wat.
they make me happy, even though some would be so shitty
as to hurt me over and over again.

had a girls evening to night out wif some of the girlies
from kallangcs.
faizah, lydia, mai and ida.
wani couldn't make it but she promised to come for the next one.
i hold u to dat, woman!

u noe, it's great to just talk and talk with no hindrance watsoeva.
we all talked about our problems and our misgivings on everything in life.
we cried, hugged and kissed.
it was such a great therapy.
we shd do it again, girls.
and dis time, make sure the rest can come!
pics are up.
little, coz we spent our tym talking than taking pics.
and yes, i noe i looked tired and irritating.
but dat's just me. so shut up and just view them.

the blardy taxi driver went a longggggg way.
to cte and den pie.
kan slenge kan.
charged me $10.90 for a ride that usually cost me 8 bux.
kannasai.
$2 pon. duit kan tu. lepas mee soto kat skolah.

orite. i'm not sleepy.
but i'm just too tired to blog any further.
and damn, i so wanna watch Sin City.

burst veins @ 12:58 AM

Monday, April 25, 2005
when love and hate collide

i'm in love.
i reali am.
with who, u may ask?
with myself.
hahahahha..

thanks to one of my friends who messaged me while i was watching Infection,
which, i think, is such a nonsense show
which, i think, has a great storyline
but isn't scary at all,
my ego was boosted by 9 198 181 187%.
thank you fariz!
hahahaha..
ask me nicely and i'll tell you why!
and yeah, alif n khus, don't get jealous ok!
hahahaha..

oh yeah, the part which the ghost didn't come out,
i screamed out loud.
and the whole theatre was laughing at me.
alif n khus had to tell me that they were laughing at me.
i noe okkkkk..

see my title?
that was one of Deff Leppard hits.
i loved dat song.
and i was in love wif the lead singer of the DL.
hahahaha.. weird rite?

talking about in love with someone,
i wanna watch Sin City.
oh my god.
pretty people acting alert!
there are JESICCA ALBA!, brittany murphy, alexis biel [?] (the girl who plays rory in gilmore girls)
and of coz, the guys. MY MEN: JOSH HARTNETT AND ELIJAH WOOODDD!!!
i'm sure most of u know how madly in love i am wif Elijah.
he was the bomb in The Good Son.
cool shit.

received alot of news regarding my sec skool mates.
hahahaha..
all good, all good.
i'm happy.

and one of my greatest sec skool mates, suria
sent me via MSN dis Naruto ep entitle, The Narutrix.
it was soo cool!
i haf to send it to alif.
dat dude is mad about naruto.
and i tink kakashi is hot.

hope alif's bro will get better.
he will be! coz he has dat guy for a 2nd big bro.
:)

skool was ok.
i'll be getting lazier to go skool.
u can bet on it.
and i'll be missing skool when i graduate. :(

and tomorrow, probably having a girls evening out
with my gals,
wani, faizah n lydia.
any of u guys wanna come?
hahahaha..

oh! the indonesian band, Peterpan,
they have gorgeous members!!
the singer, the keyboardist are soooooo cuteee and fine!!
my my.

dun mind my hyperactiveness.
i was worried sick just now so i drank a full mug of coffee.
and my frenz shd noe how much i hate coffee.
so now, i'm feeling quite fresh and so hyper.
damn.
my bro even told me to shut up.
hhahahaha..

ok bye.

burst veins @ 11:19 PM

Sunday, April 24, 2005
reminisce

dis is so fun!
i'm chatting wif alif
and we asked all dis, "when was the 1st tym we talk to each other?" kinda questions.
and dat guy has a very good memory!
i wanna ask the rest of the kids also ah!
cool kan.

went retail therapy wif my sister in law to be.
i wanted to buy alot of stuffs
but frankly, compass point is such a fucking sucky place to shop at.
wanted to go town but frankly, even i myself thought it was too far.
so, no tshirts or pants or anything but i bought myself undergarments.
cute prints on underwear does it for me.
with bras of alot of colours.
i love cute underwear. hahahaha..
so guys, if u wanna buy things for me, buy for me cute underwear.
thanx.

so now i'm left wif an amount i noe i can finish in a day but i won't.
i can save 10 bux for 3 weeks ok without feeling the need to spend it.
so i'm left with 30. prolly saving it also.
i'm so thrifty sometimes i scare myself.
and if i spend, i scare myself too.
cool.

man u vs newcastle.
oh my. i dun tink i bother watching already.

ok. dat's about it.
bye.

burst veins @ 10:40 PM

Saturday, April 23, 2005
pressplay!

walked ard town is tiring.
especially so if u haf frenz who are so hyper active
and love walking.
but it's all great fun.
i love my frenz!
n yeah, monIRAH n kin, u guys juz dono when to stop window-shopping.
cool shit.

ate at dis place at cineleisure basement.
the food sux.
urgh.

bought a storybook for a dollar at Plaza Singapura.
don't ask me y.
i juz felt lyk buying it.

so now i'm eating roti wif milk.
at 2.26am.
cool kan.

i get all my inspiration to blog in the toilet.
but when i come out from the toilet, i'll forget wat to blog about.
weird kan?

oh lela, it's still not time yet to blog about u.
muahahaha.. i'll promise u, it'll be soon.

the bro's 5 minit semangat has waver.
the xbox is collecting dust.

and dis com can suck my dick if i haf one.

burst veins @ 1:56 AM

Friday, April 22, 2005
like finally!

like finally, i can log in blogger.
fuck. been causing me misery for the past hour.
couldn't log in.
panicked for a moment dere.
yes, i can panicked if i can't update my blog.
sad life i lead.

n like finally, someone from ur group decided to come up to us.
i was pleasantly surprised.
but den, he doesn't really count as someone from ur group ah?
as far as we all are concerned, he's neutral isn't he?
i apologise for putting him in a spot.
but i don't tink apologies are needed for the rest of u.
u guys can go suck some dicks and we won't care.
i rest my case.
but i noe u n u n u n u won't.

won't be going to skool tmr.
coz we juz hate presentation.
not other reason. we dun hate confrontation.
we juz hate presentating our project,
which isn't even half done.
muhahahahha...

suhaylah, i'll talk about u some days.
i nid to find inspirations.
oh, for ur infos, she is my sec skool mate. :)
not my classmate! NO!

have i mention dat mom is the best?
i have?
ok, i'll tell u guys again:
MY MUM IS THE BEST EVA!

i dono wat else to blog animore.
actually, i do haf alot to blog about.
it's juz dat, it seems childish to fight in blogs.
so i won't continue. heh.

oklah. bye!

burst veins @ 12:23 AM

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
i'm so fucking slpy n u're stupid.

i shd cut down on surfing the net n chatting on MSN.
coz it's been consuming my sleep.
i'll be aslp by 4+ and i'll be awake by 7.
cool shit or wat?
and by the tym i reach skool, i'll be lyk a zombie.
so i tink, eh, i KNOW i shd cut down on the com.

watched Hitch juz now at fir's place.
it was great!!!!!
i noe, u guys must be tinking i'm so outdated.
but i didn't manage to watch it when it was in the movies wat!
oh my.. IF ONLY all guys are as smooth as Alex Hitchen.
:P

i'm an insecure fuck.
i reli am.
if things aren't confirmed or wateva, i'll be an even more uptight insecure fuck.
so dun mind me.
pls carry on wif ur work, thank u.

fir is a smart ass.
he can be a hacker for all i noe.
but dat's not hacking.
dat's using his brains.
view source.
smart boy.
n u're plain stupid.

oh. tweet is getting horny.
heh.

orite ppl.
bye!

burst veins @ 11:01 PM

Tuesday, April 19, 2005
mom is my bestie.

no matter which frenz i'm close wif,
whom i'm willing to die for,
mom would be the one whom i could talk from morning till night.
sure, she nags. which mom doesn't?
but overall, she listens.
she nv interrupt when i talk.
she nv scold me if i reason wif her properly.
she listens. she rawks my world.
and i thank her for listening to me juz now.
i thank her for everything she did and still does.
thank u so much.

ok, *wipes tears*, i had fun dis few days.
my frenz have been great.
i <3 u guys too. :)

so tmr, dere's prolly be about 3 hours break.
so u tell me, wat the fuck are we gonna do for 3 hours.
damn sian k.

to suhaylah, i will write about u another day!
today lazy ah minah!

oh puhhhllleeasssee.. TELL THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD!!
i'm the bad girl orite?
thanks ehhhh..

new pics are up.

burst veins @ 11:44 PM

ATTENTION:

don't mind my frenz/rappers wif the previous post.

i'll be back wif an entry, update by MYSELF, when i get home.

:)

//EDIT
OMG AYU TRIED TO UPDATE THE BLOG WITHOUT ME....

BUT NVM I WONT UPDATE ON HER BLOG BUT I KNOW I JUST DID..

burst veins @ 1:23 PM

HI THIS IS THE ERASED MELONCHOLY NIGHTMARE

Alif(EMINEM)
Yaw yaw, wassup ma dawgs. Right now, it's been cool. I'm touring with Jin and Jay-Z on the rap warped tour sponsored by VANS TRANSPORT. Yeah, right now it's our guest singer, Usher doing his number, "YEAH" on the stage. It's all cool. Thanks to our manager Dayu Noti 2 Shorty. Yeah. I just like to say, I'm cute, and maybe, that one day, there was a pig. The pig name was Wahab. Wahab was a good pig. He used to love making fun of me, Jin and Jay-Z. Sad to say, it will be the last time, he ever made fun of us, cause we made bacon out of him. Sorry Wahab, you will be dearly missed. We were too hungry. I dedicate this song, "WHITE AMERICA" cause it's all pigs there, and maybe, just maybe one day, we will find another Wahab.
I'm crying right now as I type this out. Let this be an unopen letter to the world. YES! Still cute la. I'm thinking of adding some Singlish words into my new album, cause I still love Singapore. HELLO SINGAPORE. That was my last time I said that out loud infront of my 30 billion fans. Maybe, just maybe, we will be together, Singapore. Cheers mate. I'm going Australian. I end this with a beautiful number I wrote...

I dono la ask them the rappers.
Or shud I wear the pampers.
Ive found a reason.
in this season.
apple apple energy.
i use synergy.
maybe one day i'll be famous
and all day eat famous amos.
white america.
suck me hukalasha.
who's bukalasha.
she's someone from america
yo yo
po yo
la la
lo la
im eminem
and i love m&m
it melts in ur mouth.
and opposite of north is south.
east to the west
west to the east
death to bitch
that touches my witch.

bye yaw. its been beautiful..

Fir(JIN)

My name is JIN and mayb i shy
Come little girl and suck mine
If u r cute blow my flute
blow hard and don puke..
AKU JIN!
I've SIN!
Maybe not now,
OK bye..

Tweet(Jay-Z)
One day i found an apple
It is red like my nipple
If u wan to c my masterpiece
Come to A-TOWN at least

1-2-3-4
Aku dari Singapore
5-6-7-8
Sape nak ikut aku gi date

Yo-Yo Encore
Do u wan more?
Dial 93866074
Do u wan more?

DAYU(MANAGER)
Yes, this is the manager speaking. I just like to say, support local music. Maybe, just maybe, all my 3 rappers are so damn cute. I HAVE THE SENSATIONAL EMINEM WHO IS ALIF AND DAMN CUTE. AND I HAVE THE FASTEST BEST RAPPER, JAY-Z. AND JIN, OUR SHY RAPPER, WHO'S ONE OF THE BEST, AND DAMN CUTE TOO.
I WANT TO BE CUTE LIKE THEM.
BUT LIFE FORBIDS
SOMEWHERE... OVER THE RAINBOW.
THERE IS NO RAINBOW..
THERE IS NO MATRIX..
THIS IS THE END..
===================================

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burst veins @ 12:17 PM

Monday, April 18, 2005
i'm embarrassed. :)

my back is in pain.
i dono y.
i can't sit still nor can i stand straight.
oh yeah, for ur info, i haf a crooked backbone/spine.
from top it's straight, but reaching the end, it crooks to my right.
it effects every.. erm.. 1/10 gals?
1/100? oh i dono.
my sis has it too.
cool shit rite?

Guess Who was ok.
ashton kutcher is my kinda guy.
goofy, cute n slack.
;)
and the story does hit me in the face.
but i dun care!

had a good day today although only khai, alif n me came.
rawking rite?
soooo slack.

i feel guilty.
yes i do.
but i dun feel the same way animore.
guilty n love are 2 different things.

oh well. bye.

burst veins @ 11:01 PM

ramblings.

i had great fun wif the gals of kallangcs.
i'm so gonna miss u girls.
we shd mit up and haf a girls day out one day.
i'll miss crapping wif u girls.
especially faizah.
big kiss n big hugs from me to u gals.

sorry to break ur heart once again.
but i noe i can't run away from the facts.
i noe it isn't fair to u.
but it'll be more unfair to me if i force myself to be wif u.
for once, i nid to tink about myself.
i'm sorry. n pls dun wait.

pics will be up soon, kallangcs.
i'm lazy at the moment.

and speaking of lazy, i'm lazy to go skool.
hah. wat's new.
i received my 3rd warning letter the other day,
informing me dat i would be de-registered from my course.
ah crap. at the same tym i'm scared.
blardy hell, left a few more weeks till skool ends only!
knn lah.

some private entry at lj.
sorie, no friends-only for today. :)

burst veins @ 12:58 AM

Sunday, April 17, 2005
till we meet again.

thank u for everything.
u noe u've done more than enuf to salvage everything.
but i'm so sorry.
my heart is juz so stubborn.
may u be happy wif ur loved ones n new loved ones.
take care.

for once, i feel sad/happy at the same tym.
dun ask me y.
i noe y but i dun feel lyk telling.
well...maybe if u ask nicely.

thank u...

burst veins @ 1:41 AM

Friday, April 15, 2005
i'm juz so sleepy...

i kept wondering.
am i being heartless?
girls, our hearts are much more gentle.
can be easily swayed or coaxed or persuaded.
but for now, my stubbornness has surprised even my own self.
i'm not happy doing it
but i noe it's for our own good.
n i'm happy to noe dat i'll benefit from it months, years from now.
i'll be more happy.
it's so worth the wait.

to him, thank u for understanding the talk we had last nite.
i'm sorie for being so harsh and rude towards u and all dat.
but i noe wat i've said was the truth and sincere and so true.
and i noe u'll haf a better life without me.
let's move on, stay as frenz.
we'll be better off dat way.

aniwae, prolly going to watch the gig at Planet Paradigm tmr.
see if i haf the kaching or the mood.
coz honestly.. nvm, i myself noe y.
hah. :)

for the 1st tym ever, i went n stayed in skool till 5 on a friday.
how cool is dat?
very.

and i'm getting to having a livejournal.
i'll prolly gonna delete blogger altogether and go private.
we'll see how.
when u all go a hunger strike, i won't delete my blog.
hahahaha..kidding..

i nid to change my layout.
so boring.

burst veins @ 11:20 PM

Wednesday, April 13, 2005
dancing in the rain.

can i do dat?
can i?
i juz feel lyk dancing.
frankly, all my insecurities kinda disappear by those words.
hah.
but i myself noe dat some stuffs will happen
and i'll end up crawling into my shell again.
haiz.. being the victim of an abusive ex boyf has its consequences.
i am no longer the bubbly girl.
she's dead.
blah.

aniway, dad n mum are stressing me out.
help!
oh well, i can't help it dat i'm so busy at skool rite?
nvm. parents. i haf to bear dat in mind.

bored. bye.

burst veins @ 9:53 PM

Tuesday, April 12, 2005
&^^%^&&

menses juz sux ok.
it juz plain sux.
and if no guys understands y majority of girls suffer from pms,
y they go all moody,
den could they pls haf the decency and courtesy to at least
be abit tactful and mindful of wat they said
ard girls who suffer from pms badly?
like me for example.
HAH.
no no, i'm juz giving warning to ppl.
no one said anything rude to me today.
gd for girls who can still be happy when they are having their menses.
lucky bitches.
hahahahah..

couldn't reli wake up for skool juz now.
so i slpt till 9 and reached skool at 11+.
heavens.
but now i'm all sleepy again.

cls was great.
tweet n faliq were dancing to reggae shits.
and they grind each other.
cool shit ah.

and i tink i reli suck lah.
bye.

burst veins @ 9:35 PM

Monday, April 11, 2005
so......

i dun understand myself sumtyms.
if my attitude gonna be like dis,
i tink i'm gonna push some ppl away.
i'm so sorie. i do tink i am a nutcase.
maybe becoz i sound desperate?
or maybe becoz i sound clingy?
or maybe becoz i myself found myself to be a bit crazy.
wat a life.

aniwae, yesterday, i watched samara wif alif n khus at bugis.
samara sux big tym. it doesn't even worth a star.
maybe juz the top triangle of a star.
dat's it.
draggy, nonsense and full of crap.
but watching it wif them was fun!
we wasted 3/4 of the medium popcorn bucket throwing at each other.
by the tym the show ended, i left a trail of popcorn behind me.
it was a mess. i pity the cleaners.
will upload some pics.soon.
lazy bug has bit me.

this com is driving me more crazy than wat i actually am.
it will shut down by itself without any warning
and i'll be left wif a black screen alone.
so sad.
dat's y i'm typing dis out as fast as i can. hahahaha..

oh. i tink my training tak jadi on the 14th.
dono y lah.
haiz.. all i nid is a job to keep me occupied.

the previous entry was of coz, done by tweet.
so don't mind him ok.

ok lah. bored.

burst veins @ 9:30 PM

Tweet cutelah

I eat one apple then two then three then four..After that i copy Tweet's labsheet so im cool nd so are you..The i go play computer then i play play till i sian then i sian again..Ok tmr we go Ngonjeng Ngonjeng with the Kids..Who are the Kids?I don noe ah ok bye?POKEWAK!!!

burst veins @ 10:04 AM

Sunday, April 10, 2005
When the sun rises again, I'll be there for you my friend.

this is scary.
was ready to go to bed dis morning at 5.
lied on my back and cuddled my smelly pillow
when suddenly i couldn't breathe properly.
i tried sleeping on my front and it didn't work.

got up, walked ard the house for awhile,
sit on the bed once again.
tried sleeping while sitting
but i was too shagged to stay still.
tried 3, 4 times of sleeping on my back and front
to no avail.

decided to wake my mum up.
i was already starting to kneel
and tried my best to breathe.
mum took mentholatum [spell?], a vicks like vapour rub.
she rubbed it on my back and front and she cuddled me to sleep.

dis is a rare occurance.
but dis is alot worse than i've ever experienced.
so scary, i tot i couldn't see the lights of the day today.
heh. dramatic, exaggerated. wateva.
it WAS very scary.
i was practically wheezing and beating my chest.

i tink i shd really cut down on drinking cold drinks,
biting ice cubes and smoking.
dis is getting out of hand.

but if i do die, pls remember, i love u all, my readers.
<3.

burst veins @ 11:38 AM

honesty is better than living a lie.

try as i might, but my taik juz dowan to come out.
oh well. tmr is a new day.
can try somemore.

i've bin coughing non-stop.
it's so freaking irritating.
i min, i could be so fast aslp when suddenly i am awaken
by the sudden urge to cough.
and it's not just a cough and den dat's it.
it's a cough which look like i'm having a serious convulsion.

dis morning, someone send me a basket of flowers to my place.
thank u very much for them.
they are pretty.
i appreciate dat.

aniwae, in the evening juz now, my house had a syarahan.
the uztaz came my place to gif a talk
and almost everyone of my relatives came.
tym flew by pretty quickly especially when u are smsing ppl.
hahaha.. from 8.30 pm i was smsing till about 10.30pm.
and i didn't even hear a single thing.
busy smsing and gossipping wif my female cuzzens.
on top of dat, the uztaz talked wif a funny accent.
so yeah. it felt lyk an eternity.

amcm my layout?
ok ok lah eh.
i juz love the pic.
heh.

man u lost to norwich.
nabei.

sian to the max.
are u all feeling the same way?

I just feel so cool.

burst veins @ 1:41 AM

Saturday, April 09, 2005
give that girl her food.

watch The Pacifier wif the kids, minus faliq n khai
plus khus' gf, jas.
dat show rawk lah!
Vin Diesel is sooo sweet and cute in dat show.
and some parts of the story is so touching ok.
kin n me almost teared at those parts.
poor fir had to endure our yakkings coz he sat between us.
i tink rite, those who sat between me n kin are very suay.
hahahah.. i dono y.

aniwae, we saw dis cute, chubby and sooo handsome baby boy.
he was wif his parents who are so damn young looking.
late 20s probably.
and they let him roam around the street of town
while they look from afar.
we were lyk kissing him, cooing him, disturbing him, taking pics wif him
and the parents juz smile.
sooo fat... the legs are soo chicken wings like.
i took a pic wif him.
hope kin will upload soon.

rite now, waiting for my big bro to come back home.
i can't wait to eat my food coz i'm so freaking hungry!
and i wanna thrash him on the xbox again!

k dah. i wanna chat ah.
bye.

burst veins @ 2:00 AM

Friday, April 08, 2005
can i go berserk now? pls?

the video project was great.
it went great. i was so happy.
but my fever was acting up.
so i managed to utter a few sentences before i slumped into silence.

it turned out dat khai isn't supposed to be my best fren.
kin is.
fir is kin's scandal and also khai's best fren.
and khai is kin's bf.
confused? don't be. dis is all fiction.
we are the cast of the No Direction's Nostalgia video clip.

ate a little although my stomach went kruk kruk.
until now.
and i can hear it eventhough my bro is playin his game
and i am typing oh so damn loud.
oh wat the hell.

and talking about the bro playing his game,
i had juz finished thrashing him a fighting game called "Death or Alive."
he lost 10-2 to me.
he was going, "eh! siak ah!", "kau. mampos!"
hahhahaa.. i'm good at fighting game ok.
too much practice at the arcade.

oh ya, about my title.
ya. can i pls go berserk now?
can? pls pls pls?
so dat i can juz pretend dat everything is stress-free.
i got a scolding from dad becoz i got home late tonite.
i was doing my project wat!
not dat i merayap!
ahh nvm. thank god mum sides wif me.
sumtyms i wonder if i anak mak or anak bapak.
coz i get along wif both sooooo well.
haizz..

i wish i could say alot more here
but i guess LJ is soo much more private.
so, anyone wif LJ account, if u haf my username, pls add me.
and if u're lucky, i might make an entry for friends only.
haha. nolah, almost all my entries at lj are for friends only.
private is a rarity.

i'm juz typing down my random thoughts.
don't mind me.
and thx alot for bearing wif me.

the end.

burst veins @ 1:05 AM

Thursday, April 07, 2005
bleeding mascara.

i'm so having an irritating and itchy sorethroat,
a now-filled-with-phlegm cough,
a wheezing cold
and to top it all off,
i can feel a fever building up.
how great.

am not going to skool today.
the kids and i are going to shoot our video project today.
like i've mention before, we'll be shooting No Direction's Nostalgia video.
and khai has to be my best fren.
so he has to act wif me - AGAIN.
i'm so gonna screw up acting wif him coz,
basically, he juz crack me up
wif his crazy antics and funny words.
haiz.

i'm so glad i haf sumthing to look forward to from now onwards.
no more crying, no more heartaches.
happiness is wat i'm truly yearning for.
hopefully i will get it in months to come.
i deserve some happiness. :D

oritey.
gotta get ready and mit the kids.

burst veins @ 9:25 AM

Tuesday, April 05, 2005
i'm sick!

i'm having a dry cough and a sorethroat.
oh, how i hate dry cough!
it's making my throat so painful, so itchy and nasty!
too much of eating junks i guess!
but i tink i myself noe the reason y.

aniwae, my training will start on the 14th of dis mth.
so.. we haf all the tym in the world till den.
to do my projects.. to tink about other stuffs.. :)

skool starts at 12 tmr.
lucky.

and i'm updating for the sake of it.

:)

burst veins @ 12:10 AM

Monday, April 04, 2005
:)

can someone pls stop me from smiling?
it's getting tiring and my jaw is cramped.
thanks eh.

burst veins @ 3:03 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005
dilemma.

i'm juz so stucked i dono wat to do.
i tink i shd follow my head more than my heart.
juz for once.
but u noe sumthing?
i like dis dilemma.
haha. ;)

pls, does anyone tink about me before they say all dat?
pls gif me tym. pls pls pls gif me tym.
i won't predict the future.
u nv noe if we could jolly well ended up marrying each other.
but for now, i dun feel lyk doing all dat.
pls tink of me before u say and do all dat.

tmr, cls is cancelled.
so my group, which consist of my whole 8 mad cap frenz,
will be doing our video project.
yeap, another video project.
we'll be making No Direction's Nostalgia video clip.
coolness or wat??

i'm starting to..
ah.. nvm.. i rather keep it for myself.
lest i get disturbed if i disclose it.
haha.

burst veins @ 10:31 PM

lol.

i had a great time.
and i can't belif i did manage to haf fun.
thank you very nice for everything...

and pls support No Direction guys..
i haf no freaking idea y i typed dis.

new pics are up.

and my com sux big tym.
someone kind enuf to buy one for me?

burst veins @ 2:36 AM

Saturday, April 02, 2005
let's make it official.

i won't say anything much.
but it's official.
i won't cry, i gotta be strong for everyone around me.
i hope n pray i won't crumble dat easily.

aniwae, got back home ard 4.30am today.
went to farid's house to continue wif our project.
and now, IT'S A WRAP!
hehe.
so fun.
khus, faliq, khai n me had the most scenes.
haiz. retarded idiots.
pics will be up soon.

going to my cuzzie bdae chalet later.
won't overnight though.
after dat, maybe a movie date wif my alif n khus.

orite.
life will be a-ok.
i noe it will.
i juz wished dat i'll stop feeling so empty.

burst veins @ 2:37 PM

Friday, April 01, 2005
for all the shits i've bin thru.

i juz feel lyk screaming out loud.
do i haf dat "i haf thousands of problems" look written on my face?
y is everyone askin me dat?

my barista training starts next wk.
dat was what khai said anyway.
i nid to get a kick start on my life
so i guess it came at the rite tym.
coz i could finally vent my frustrations
and every single ounce of my energy in my training.
yeap.dat is wat i'm gonna do.

u noe the small girl ghost
dat kept sitting on my sis?
well, she's out of my house.
juz now my cuzzen's uztaz came by here
and he, erm, exorcise the ghost.
it was a lost child. poor thing.
i usually dun belif all dis things
but now dat it happened right in front of my eyes,
yeah, i believe it now.

i find it silly to laugh
if someone nudged me at MSN.
but i dono how to react if someone does dat.
i min, shd i nudged dat person back
or shd i say sumthing.
dat's y i juz laugh.
heh.

and seriously, i'm not ungrateful.
i juz feel dat i do deserve better.
not juz some shits dat i unwillingly accept.

haiz.

to khai, ur blardy pics are up! :D

burst veins @ 1:09 AM